what happens when you put your life on hold for 50 days for someone you find it hard to love like you should

so heres the thing...




i was just washing the dishes and thinking. cuz yano, thats what people do. and i was trying to think of a way to start this thing again. should i rejoice that im back home? should i say hi? should i just....? should i just...? then i realized, i'll just write. which is what im doing. right now. in my room. in this very uncomfortable chair.





which is going to be replaced soon thanks to the fact that i went chair shopping with my boyfriend yesterday. oh wait i never told you about my boyfriend. ha. well we'll write about that some other day. but all you have to know for now is his name's michael and i love him. and he loves me. and its been 3 months cept its really more like 1.5. again. all that later.


so your wondering about the title yes? well heres the thing. long story short(for the begining part mind you) and yes the golden years is ironic.

2002 parents broke up. dad moved next door to my cousin, veronica, friends ever since

2004 father marries his former gf and moves to honduras

2004-2007 every summer ive gone alone with my brother to honduras for at least a month.

2008 put my life on hold for 50 days for a man i find it hard to love anymore because he hates his own niece and his daughters best friend and who really has not been in my life for the past 4 years(some of the most crutial and changing years of my life)





so this is what happens when you put your life on hold for 50 days.

ABSOLUTLY NOTHING SIGNIFICANTLY POSITIVE

i repeat.

ABSOLUTELY

NOTHING

SIGNIFICANTLY

POSITIVE