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Saturday, February 28, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
because it's fucking ridiculous what they think.
before i go on i just want to say that i'm not doing this to look for any sympathy or anything. i'm just doing this because i think it's just a bit ridiculous how some people have come to view this and I want people to know what’s really going on since it’s not visible on the outside.
Problem: over- used left hip has resulted in an inflammation of hip muscles (i'm not going to go into specifics because thats too confusing but its more than just my hip flexors). I figured this out on a Friday when, while doing crunches and stretches my left hip made this popping sound every time I rotated it or came up for a crunch. After that I started feeling the pain 27/7 and it would get worse when I danced and for the night after I danced. I also have a HUGE turnout on my left side, which I discovered 5 years ago when I had joint pain in my left leg, ankle, knee, and hip. I’ve also sprained/twisted my ankle on the left side 10 times from January 2008-2009. Weird how my sides are uneven but it’s just how it is.
What’s being done: I’ve been going to physical therapy since November. I was told that I needed to stop dancing but being the hardass that I am I decided to continue with the promise that I would stop after the dance concert and not return to dance other than one class and teaching on Tuesdays till September when auditions for dance ensemble came around.
The therapist has told me that the over use resulted from a lack of support coming from my core and therefore I’ve been using my hip muscles to support movement in my legs, things like fan kicks especially or anything in turnout. I’ve been doing core strengthening exercises since then while stretching my very very tight hip muscles. This is hard though cuz I’m not allowed to do the normal crunches because everytime I do them my muscles get scrunched and tightened, and popping results. Same with moving my hip in a high rotation (like a fan kick)
When I first started going to therapy my pain was at a 7 or 8 on a scale of 1-10. It was reduced to a 5 by the end of November and only because it had begun decreasing my doctor said that I could dance in January for the show as long as I took it REALLY easy after my show the first weekend of December.
At this point I was still in a lot of pain even though it had been reduced. I layed in bed all the time because putting pressure on it by standing up made it worse. I couldn’t sit up for a long amount of time because at the 90ยบ angle it got crunched and tight just like with a crunch or sit up. I used ice all the time and heat sometimes depending on the pain scale.
It was hard for me to get a lot of homework done because I couldn’t sit up and it’s really hard for me to type to do homework on the computer from my bed, laptop is just as bad cuz it puts pressure on my neck if I bend my neck up. Moving into a more sitting up position strained my back and put pressure on my hip. I layed down for most of thanksgiving break.
With all of this came the death of my great uncle with whom I was really close. I in such a state of shock that I really couldn’t do anything. A lot more drama went on around here and some of you know what it is. I’m not going to get into it though cuz it really has nothing to do with my hip…sorta.
Around here I also started having a bad reaction to the 5 doses of advil I was taking a day. I threw up and was really really nauseous all the time. I stopped taking it and just went without meds for a week or so. That really killed. I got a new prescription for a med that wouldn’t murder my stomach as bad and it’s been working since.
I took it really easy after my December show but I dreaded January because I knew I was going to push myself so hard and it was going to hurt like hell. I continued my stretches and exercises.
January came and I covered up my pain and was taking both the new meds and Tylenol. Sometimes I would kick in a bit of advil so that I would stop hurting. They also started a thing called phonopheresis (sp?) , which is like an anti inflamitory med that they put on your skin then use something that looks like an ultra sound without the video monitor on my hip area.
My butt started hurting around the second week of January. There’s a little muscle about the size of your pinkie in your butt that can get really really tight, especially with people who have really good turnouts. My PT started having massage that muscle. Oh my god. It hurt so freakin bad. I’ve never cried over the pain caused by my hip but this, this hurt so bad I cried. I’ve gotten used to it a bit now but it still hurts every time she does it. She tried doing it to my right muscle and it didn’t hurt at all. She said she could feel the tightness, and usually it’s never as tight as my left one. She also checked my hip alignment and turns out my left hip is a little bit higher and more forward than my right. She started taking care of that by pulling my hip down and pushing it back.
When your body starts hurting and needs to stop using a certain muscle your other muscles kick in and start working for it so that you can continue with your regular movement. The muscle that started kicking in was my lower left back muscles. The new work these muscles started doing started causing pain in my back.
So now I’ve got hip, butt AND back pain. This isn’t good. We’re trying lots of things now and I’ve even got a yoga ball to do my exercises at home. Now that the dance show is over I’m going to have to start resting it. This means no dance. Except for 2 hours on Tuesdays for work and a class just to keep in shape technique wise. This is going to kill. I’ve never NOT been doing dance. During the summer I get sad cuz I can’t dance and dance is my life. I’m in constant pain and as of right now, as I write this I can tell you that my hip pain level is at a 4, my butt pain level is at a 5 and my back pain level is at a 6/7. It’s been getting worse as I sit here to this too. I’ve had to eliminate some stretches because I get pains in other areas of my body but the bottom line I guess is that I need to start getting that six pack soon and start stretching like crazy. I guess I’ll also have to watch what I eat since dancing almost every day is part what keeps me from inheriting some of my family’s weight problems. I’ve pretty much been focusing my entire energy on dance and this show so I’m sorry if I’ve been a bit of a bitch lately because even though I’m hoping to be back in September, you never know. So, yeah, it kind of scares me, not having dance in my everyday life. But for now I guess I’ll just be focusing on school. Thank God for SAT and ACT prep. At least I can start to get into that.
And if you still don’t believe me, read this again. If you want more details I’d be happy to give them to you. Thanks for reading.
Problem: over- used left hip has resulted in an inflammation of hip muscles (i'm not going to go into specifics because thats too confusing but its more than just my hip flexors). I figured this out on a Friday when, while doing crunches and stretches my left hip made this popping sound every time I rotated it or came up for a crunch. After that I started feeling the pain 27/7 and it would get worse when I danced and for the night after I danced. I also have a HUGE turnout on my left side, which I discovered 5 years ago when I had joint pain in my left leg, ankle, knee, and hip. I’ve also sprained/twisted my ankle on the left side 10 times from January 2008-2009. Weird how my sides are uneven but it’s just how it is.
What’s being done: I’ve been going to physical therapy since November. I was told that I needed to stop dancing but being the hardass that I am I decided to continue with the promise that I would stop after the dance concert and not return to dance other than one class and teaching on Tuesdays till September when auditions for dance ensemble came around.
The therapist has told me that the over use resulted from a lack of support coming from my core and therefore I’ve been using my hip muscles to support movement in my legs, things like fan kicks especially or anything in turnout. I’ve been doing core strengthening exercises since then while stretching my very very tight hip muscles. This is hard though cuz I’m not allowed to do the normal crunches because everytime I do them my muscles get scrunched and tightened, and popping results. Same with moving my hip in a high rotation (like a fan kick)
When I first started going to therapy my pain was at a 7 or 8 on a scale of 1-10. It was reduced to a 5 by the end of November and only because it had begun decreasing my doctor said that I could dance in January for the show as long as I took it REALLY easy after my show the first weekend of December.
At this point I was still in a lot of pain even though it had been reduced. I layed in bed all the time because putting pressure on it by standing up made it worse. I couldn’t sit up for a long amount of time because at the 90ยบ angle it got crunched and tight just like with a crunch or sit up. I used ice all the time and heat sometimes depending on the pain scale.
It was hard for me to get a lot of homework done because I couldn’t sit up and it’s really hard for me to type to do homework on the computer from my bed, laptop is just as bad cuz it puts pressure on my neck if I bend my neck up. Moving into a more sitting up position strained my back and put pressure on my hip. I layed down for most of thanksgiving break.
With all of this came the death of my great uncle with whom I was really close. I in such a state of shock that I really couldn’t do anything. A lot more drama went on around here and some of you know what it is. I’m not going to get into it though cuz it really has nothing to do with my hip…sorta.
Around here I also started having a bad reaction to the 5 doses of advil I was taking a day. I threw up and was really really nauseous all the time. I stopped taking it and just went without meds for a week or so. That really killed. I got a new prescription for a med that wouldn’t murder my stomach as bad and it’s been working since.
I took it really easy after my December show but I dreaded January because I knew I was going to push myself so hard and it was going to hurt like hell. I continued my stretches and exercises.
January came and I covered up my pain and was taking both the new meds and Tylenol. Sometimes I would kick in a bit of advil so that I would stop hurting. They also started a thing called phonopheresis (sp?) , which is like an anti inflamitory med that they put on your skin then use something that looks like an ultra sound without the video monitor on my hip area.
My butt started hurting around the second week of January. There’s a little muscle about the size of your pinkie in your butt that can get really really tight, especially with people who have really good turnouts. My PT started having massage that muscle. Oh my god. It hurt so freakin bad. I’ve never cried over the pain caused by my hip but this, this hurt so bad I cried. I’ve gotten used to it a bit now but it still hurts every time she does it. She tried doing it to my right muscle and it didn’t hurt at all. She said she could feel the tightness, and usually it’s never as tight as my left one. She also checked my hip alignment and turns out my left hip is a little bit higher and more forward than my right. She started taking care of that by pulling my hip down and pushing it back.
When your body starts hurting and needs to stop using a certain muscle your other muscles kick in and start working for it so that you can continue with your regular movement. The muscle that started kicking in was my lower left back muscles. The new work these muscles started doing started causing pain in my back.
So now I’ve got hip, butt AND back pain. This isn’t good. We’re trying lots of things now and I’ve even got a yoga ball to do my exercises at home. Now that the dance show is over I’m going to have to start resting it. This means no dance. Except for 2 hours on Tuesdays for work and a class just to keep in shape technique wise. This is going to kill. I’ve never NOT been doing dance. During the summer I get sad cuz I can’t dance and dance is my life. I’m in constant pain and as of right now, as I write this I can tell you that my hip pain level is at a 4, my butt pain level is at a 5 and my back pain level is at a 6/7. It’s been getting worse as I sit here to this too. I’ve had to eliminate some stretches because I get pains in other areas of my body but the bottom line I guess is that I need to start getting that six pack soon and start stretching like crazy. I guess I’ll also have to watch what I eat since dancing almost every day is part what keeps me from inheriting some of my family’s weight problems. I’ve pretty much been focusing my entire energy on dance and this show so I’m sorry if I’ve been a bit of a bitch lately because even though I’m hoping to be back in September, you never know. So, yeah, it kind of scares me, not having dance in my everyday life. But for now I guess I’ll just be focusing on school. Thank God for SAT and ACT prep. At least I can start to get into that.
And if you still don’t believe me, read this again. If you want more details I’d be happy to give them to you. Thanks for reading.
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