mokaaalovesya!...

...like heck yes she does.

J has been telling me i should do this again. and like the good lil teen i am i bent under that peer pressure. so if anyone asks...its all J's fault.

so i guess i'll just write about anything huh?

I am an outspoken, loud, confident woman of the world and I intend to make a difference in this world, whether you like it or not, and I can assure you that no one and nothing can stop me.

My playlist:
Love Song
U + Ur Hand
Sweetest Girl (dollar bill)
No Air
Mother, We Just Can't get enough
Touch My Body
Cry
Elevator
4 Minutes
Some Day We'll Know
You Had Me
Take a Bow
Feedback
FIRST TIME
Do it
Like It Or Leave It
FOREVER

here goes:

yesterday was pretty darn awesome since i was able to see M (yeah i know, M&M right). i think my butt is gettin bruised tho as each day passes because i seem to be falling pretty hard for him (smile if u got that one...go on, your allowed to...there ya go. see that wasn't that hard)

today hasnt been so nice though...stupid finals.
had an interesting convo with the removed T. she kept asking me all these questions about yesterday and yeah it was interesante.


shoot i really shouldnt be spending time on this since i gotta write that darn essay about the differences between that amazing confidant in my life named J. She's always got my back. (not that V, A, JM, JR, G, and K don't. and not that J is on a higher level than V cuz they're just about the same, cept for the fact that even if we fight V will always have to be there for me no matter what...)

here's the intro to that essay for now and maybe it'll explain...idk what but sure!:

When J and I met in the first grade we really didn’t talk all that much. We were pretty much in the same “clique” because our friend, A, acted as a shared best friend between us. All that changed when A decided to move to another school in the sixth grade. J and I really started talking and playing together at lunch from then on. We still hung out with our usual group but with A gone we’d begun to close the gap that A had left. We essentially became each other’s “A replacement”. In order to understand why I believe we’ve become so close, I think you need to understand why I consider her to be my best friend. J was an essential part to helping me get through the most important event in my life thus far. She was on the phone with me when my dad moved out and she listened to me cry and tried to console me as my world fell apart in front of me. Keep in mind that this was in the sixth grade. We had just hit puberty and we were each still trying to figure out ourselves. She listened to the entire story and took it all in. If my parent’s divorce was hard for me to understand, it was even harder for J to understand. I’m not sure if it was instinct but she kept things very normal for me outside of my house, where things were like hell. J became my rock after that. And she still is. As we begin to grow older and start changing more, we have developed so many differences in our personalities, lives, and interests. But still both of us manage to have a deep connection and bond that keeps us best friends.


thats all folks!


hearts forever and ever,
moka



maybe this time i'll keep this up...



dang im gonna miss him like hell this summer. thats a fersure...